As difficult as it is for me to start my mornings without my “wake up” coffee, I CAN do it.  

To have a full day of not checking things off of a “to do list” is a challenge, but it too has been accomplished.

I can go without my phone (and that’s a hard one) my iPad, the internet and even the TV and somehow I can still make it through the day.   

As crazy as it makes me to go to bed with dishes in the sink, or laundry in the dryer,  I have done it. Often. And I Am Still Sane!

There are many things that I have no problems letting go of…..

And there are  many things that I’ve had to learn to live without. 



        He lives deep within me     

And His presence is felt all around me.

I thank Him for each day as I rise

And I praise Him when I lay my head to rest.

I cannot go without Him…

I have seen Him move in many lives

And I have watched Him graciously move in death.

I hear Him in the laughter of children

And I see Him through acts of compassion and giving.

I cannot go without Him…

I seek Him for guidance with every step that I take

And I try to humble myself as I let His light shine.

I need His Wisdom and His Love

And I am thankful for His Mercy and Grace.

I just can’t go without Him…

He is my Comfort and my Strength 

My Hope  

My Friend

My Healer and My Rock

I cannot go a SINGLE MOMENT in ANY DAY without…..MY JESUS!

He is My Everything!!!

Baby.Parent.Jesus. Separation Anxiety!


A few Sundays ago Amanda was dropping Kayleigh off in the two year old class at church.  I stood in the hallway and watched as Kayleigh’s Separation Anxiety slowly consumed her.  She wanted her mommy. Nobody or anything was going to satisfy her.  

As I watched…This Mimi’s heart ached for her… and Amanda. I remembered when my kids were that young.  It always hurt to leave them. They didnt understand that I’d never put them in harm’s way and that I’d always return.  But we have to teach THEM to trust US and it’s a very important stage in their development. When they became older, WE have to learn to trust THEM when we are separated. This is just as important! 

Babies start going through the “Separation Anxiety Stage” around 7 months and it last each child different amounts of time. It can be triggered for many different things and is VERY VERY REAL!! 

In a way, it’s good news for your “little baby!”  They are becoming aware of strangers when you leave them.  Being worried about stranger’s is a sign that your baby has made a big leap in thinking and understanding. Develop a calm, short goodbye routine. (Hugs, quick kisses, and leave the room….May Work….Or Not!)  Make it a big deal when you return. Tell them how proud you are that they did it and express a big….Yippee!!  This Crazy Hard stage for your baby will pass over time, so you can rest assured, because ALL babies have to go through it!

The Crazy Thing is…. later it’s the PARENT who goes through the “Separation Anxiety Stage.” But this stage begins when your BABY is around 17!  So, don’t be alarmed when YOU start going through a very similar experience that your baby once did. Only this time it is when THEY are leaving YOU!  Hang in there…..You can make it through It!  And it can still be great news!

The first time my oldest son took the car alone was the onset of my first full blown “Separation Anxiety Attack!” I prayed and prayed…and I (and him) made it!  Over the years, I have experienced a lot more “attacks!” (OK maybe they’re not “real attacks” but they are episodes where I have become “real frantic”)  And….despite my own disbelief at times…I have made it through ALL of them thus far!  I have endured the separation of having three drivers, each of them exploring life and different jobs, going away to college, taking trips with friends and just this weekend having my first child move out on their own!  You can too with Gods help and a whole lot of prayers!   They always know where home is! After all…..Home Is Where The Heart is!  Even with knowing that, my heart strings still get pulled often and I am pretty sure yours will too.

I realized this weekend that my goodbye routine is very similar to when they were babies. Calm and short works best for me. Making it a Big Deal when I see them again. I still always express a big…Yippee!!!  It doesn’t lessen the heart ache of them being away, but it sure helps to celebrate the moments you are together.  Learning how to watch them grow and become independent from you is Crazy Hard!!  But you can rest assured, because ALL parents have to go through it!

What a calming thought it is to know How Jesus feels towards us when we separate from Him!   There are times we make choices that can bring us into many unknowns, or far away from Him.  I can only imagine the Separation Anxiety that He has for his children when ONE becomes separated. I’m thankful that my feelings for my children are nothing like the heart ache Jesus has for them. His heart ache is soooooo much greater for them than ours. It gives me amazing peace and comfort knowing His Love for His (our) Children is far beyond comprehension or measure.  

Every child and parent will go through the “Separation Anxiety Stage” in raising their children. Continue to pray your child never chooses to separate from God. But we can all rest assured, that every time one of His children takes a step away from Him, He never leaves them or says goodbye!  He waits patiently for their return home to Him. And He is so proud of them when He sees them again. He wants each of us to understand what a big deal it is when we are no longer separated from Him. I just know He has to celebrate to an extreme we can’t imagine….I bet He jumps up and down and expresses a big….Yippee!!! 

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Does Your Life Have A Message?

Are the things you hold of importance in life, life changing to others?  

Who do you inspire to be like?

Do you have a message to share? Or are you inspiring anyone?

To Inspire means:  to fill with an animating, quickening, or exalting influence; to produce or arouse a specified feeling, thought, etc.; 

your life

The Bible was inspired by a divine influence. The writings were inspired by God. And oh what a message it is!

 The 12 disciples were inspired and became Jesus followers. They trusted and believed  in His wonderful message. And it was one of His Amazing Grace!

 I am inspired by a God who promises me an eternal future. He is creating in me a wonderful message, which I can only pray reaches others, as I live by Truth, Love and Service!

So, does your message share Hope?

Is it Inspiring anyone to know Jesus and transform their life?

Make a choice to make your message matter! 

Lord,  Use us to inspire others to want to know you personally. Let our lives (at all times and in all things) share the message of you alone. Your love, Grace and Mercy. Forgive us for when we miss the mark and our words or actions distort our true life message of you. Help us to be better at reading your word more often and living your beautiful message more boldly. Create in us clean hearts oh God. Guide and direct us in the way that you want us to go….so that when we draw others to you, we also bring you all the glory deserved.





Embrace yourself like Jesus

I am learning to embrace myself like Jesus embraces me!  I hope you can too!  

God has brought me through so many (yes sooooo many) different life circumstances, hurts, and losses. There has literally been moments where I have questioned everything and times I didn’t know how to take any steps forward. But I came to realize, I will never embrace myself as my Jesus embraces me. No one could ever fully embrace me or love me as he does! Not even ME!

I do love myself, but I am “learning to embrace and love myself” just as he loves me! In every moment! Through every season! And on this new journey! I will rejoice with every step and with every triumph. Trusting him when I do not understand, and allowing him to use me through every moment of uncertainty, fear or doubt. I vow to give Him the glory and praise deserved each and every day, without having to know his plan and have all the answers ahead of time.

Looking back….I don’t know where I’d be without him or how I came this far! I was lost. But now I live thankful to have found his steadfast love and received his eternal embrace! He patiently waited for me to set my eyes upon him. He will continue to use every piece within me, that I may see as unworthy, if I give myself to him. He has taken every bit of “My Ugly” and loves me in-spite of it. He has turned the “Ugly” in my life (my hurts, doubts, fears, loss etc) and made them into something more beautiful than I could have ever imagined! Over the years, my life has definitely seen lot’s of ugly. But my life has….So Much More BEAUTY!

He’s not a quick or side huger!  He’s a God who fully embraces us and never let’s go!  He is a God of second chances. (and third and fourths) He is forgiving and kind. He is extremely devoted and fond of me…..and YOU!

With every situation I have persevered through, and as I learn to love myself like he loves me, It helps immensely to know….he will always be my Rock, my Calm, my Deliverer, my Healer, my Comforter, my Strength and my Friend! 

We have been molded and formed by him through every situation and circumstance he has brought us through. Remember, he can and will use it all!  Let’s let him!  Let’s fix our eyes upon him!  Together we can continue to learn how to love and embrace ourselves fully……Just as he does! 

Psalm 136:2 Give thanks to the God of gods, his love endures forever.

~Enjoy this poem I wrote~

Life is hard
Choices made
Clock does not turn back
Be thankful in the moments
Learn from the past
Live in the present
Look forward to the future
Have faith
Lean on Him for understanding
Live positive in all the negative
Find the beautiful in your ugly
Love others
Be an over-comer
Move forward in His grace