Torn. But All My Hope Is In You. Jesus!

This blog was inspired by the song “All Our Hope Is In You,” sung at a Leading and Loving It conference that I attended. When I heard it for the first time, It had only been a month after I had become Torn!

Me and Bill

God is the ONLY PROMISE that remains when we are torn!                                                                                                

I’ve been there….a wounded soul.  Absolutely TORN!

I’ve known God my whole life. I have relied on him for everything as I have grown in him. I have sought him for answers through many hurts and losses over the years. Just as I have sought him with the other things in my life. But the pain I felt (and am still working through) when I lost my 47-year-old brother Bill was greater than any other feeling or emotion I have EVER experienced in my life! I have been Torn for five months now. He was a very healthy man. One day he experienced an excruciating headache which ultimately led him into the hospital. He was diagnosed with a fast growing Glioblastoma Brain Tumor. Eighteen days (together) later, we said goodbye forever. He left behind an amazing wife, son and daughter, both parents, two brothers, myself, nieces/nephews, and many others who loved him dearly. The loss was and is still very real. It shattered so many lives, broke hearts, and made us question the prayers we prayed. With his sickness unexplained, we had many days that remained unclear and with that brought us doubts and fear.  Many lives have been TORN!

But in the middle of my (what felt like) empty soul, all I had was HOPE! Hope in God! And it was MORE THAN ENOUGH! My entire family experienced the peace of holding onto Hope. We believe what God’s word promises us. We know we will see Bill again. There is No other name, No other way, to get through a tragic loss, or any other hurt in our life, but by our HOPE in Jesus!

The hope I am talking about is not a feeling or an emotion.  This Hope is the knowledge of facts. It is far superior to that of the world.  Instead of a hope that leaves me wishing or hoping for something to happen, my hope is solid. It is concrete evidence because it is grounded in the Word of God!  A hope that is “the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen” ~Heb 11:1   It is a hope that is like faith…a faith that cannot be moved by circumstances or what the eyes see because an unseen God is seen in His faithfulness.

So as a believer I am “waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ” ~Titus 2:13. And with that Hope I can remain steadfast, find peace in all circumstances and regain my Joy that was robbed from deep within my soul. I am so thankful that “everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure” ~1 John 3:3. I hold onto his promises and grow my Hope and Faith as I stay in the word daily!

When you are TORN….If you’re desperate for understanding, clarity and answers like I was or similar, remember… that Our Only Hope Is In Him! 

No Matter What We Face…

Broken hearts, Unanswered prayers,

Shattered lies, And Sicknesses unexplained.

Doubts and fears, or Wounded souls,

Days unclear, Regretful pasts,

And Hurting lives in need.

No Other Name, No Other way….Our God, Is our ONLY Hope!

“the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope”  ~Rom 15:13

“we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe”  ~1 Tim 4:10

“Jesus Christ [is] our hope” ~1 Tim 1:

 Look up the song that inspired me on Youtube and be blessed:

All our Hope is in You. Central Christian Church. Drew Bodine. Torn Series